She unleashed into me...

This morning once again she came to my arms and I lugged her to me, and suddenly she was so tiny in my arms. It vanished, the resistant vanished, and she began to dissolve in a brilliant peace. As she dissolved, small and marvelously in my arms, she became extremely pleasing to me. All my blood vessels rushed me into stiffness. Yet, with a soft longing for her. For her quietness, for the penetrating splendor in my arms. Passing in to my blood and gently with a touch, with pure tender desire, softly I caress the slippery slope of her body up towards my lips. Coming closer and closer to the very end of her, and she wanted me like a blaze of desire, yet gentle, and she swept herself in the desire, she release herself, her breath raised against her will, with a silent marvelous force of insertion, and she freed herself to me. She surrendered, a moan fancying death, and she was all sweeping to me. If I left her now it would be mean. She was all gaping to me, and so desirable.

She made another longing moan, a strange and exciting. As it might come with a wipe on a delicately opened body, and that would be fatal. She grasped in a sudden agony of fear, but it came with a mysterious relaxed hope of wanting, a wicked hope of pleasing, and a slow unusual rawness, such as that marked by the sacrifice of a soul.

And her fear haunted her heart, her heart risked to let go for wanting, she freed everything, she risked to set free everything! With an unspoken yearning, my morning coffee, she unleashed into me...

I prefer affection over love

Today let me tell my take on love and affection! Affection or 'kulunu' is purely born out of respect to someone! A deep feeling of admiration for someone with regards for his or her feelings, wishes, rights, or traditions. A respect can also be born for someone's abilities, qualities or achievements. Affection is spiritual! Now don't take my word for it, just take a person you have a lot of affection for and ask, why? And just say 'Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam!' :|

For God said is the Quran 30:21, "And from His signs is that He created for you mates from yourselves that you may reside with them, and He placed between you affection and mercy. In that are signs for a people who reflect".

Now comes love, the so called love as we know is a combination of both fear and respect. Now don't take me wrong here, fear is a good thing. Fear keeps us in the due places, it keeps us bound to a reality. Just take someone you have or love, and simply ask yourself. Do you have a fear? A fear mostly of loosing, or at time of insecurity, or parents, or relatives, or it can be anything. If you have ever fallen in love, just look into your life, what really drive you to love is this fear. :)

Let us look at it from a lady's point of view. Let us picture a superior, masterful and a cruel man! It would take a lot of courage for a lady to bring such a man into her way, to change him into a compassionate, tender and nurturing man. Isn't such a brave and daring act worthy of olympic medals? Love is the journey where a lady decide to exercise a strong passionate garrison over a man, what an exciting but frightening journey? ;)

But why take such a fearful journey? It is all about procreation! To mate with the best, to create the best of offsprings, so you and your offsprings survival is high. It is all biologically wired into you! Can't help it! ;) However, with today's social conditioning, bollywood and hollywood, peer pressure and relatives, only very few will dare to become such a diva, the rest who fall to social subjection is called 'society'! :P

As for me, I had enough of this, I had my experiences of love and I think it is about time I prefer affection over love.

After motherhood the man become unloved

Why is a beautiful and high self-esteemed lady interested to take the risk of falling in love? Yes, it is a risk, falling in love is the single highest risk that a lady will take in her entire life! So why do it? Well, the real pleasure is in letting go, giving herself completely, in body and mind, to such a risk! A fantasized pleasure by making a choice, a gamble, that just might turn out to be the right one, against all odds and choices! Of course success depends on her skillfulness to teach the man to love!

Hence, this love will die after marriage! Why? Well, after taking the journey from a virgin to a mother, literally, the pleasure of living such risks are far too dangerous. So love has to turn to affection for survival and after motherhood the man become unloved. :(

How can a man fall, even when he wants and needs to!

Who says that love is an easy thing? Yes, I say it is suppose to be hard, especially for a man with strong ambitions. For such a man is a warrior who believes in loyalty, integrity, power and death. Living and Loving is an evasive affair. Though we all crave for happiness, friends, partners, children for joy, these very needs create frailty. Such is an unbearable weakness for a man, for whom weakness is next to suicide. So how can a man give in easily when love is a promise of a lethal vulnerability! How can a man fall, even when he wants and needs to! :P

She is meant to teach me a lesson in life...

Reflecting back in time, I can see at given points in my life I have always met someone who interested me enough to touch my soul. Next I can feel the nature being on our side, with clear signs of synchronicity. These persons seems to create the same emotions and come into my life over and over again at regular intervals! Am I to feel and think that I have a destiny with this particular archetype? For sure I feel the connection. Even the karma between us is positive, now I am positive that in all these cases, the attracted person has one thing in common. Whether I am ready or not, she is meant to teach me a lesson in life...

A bad fashion I can fix, but a cheat?

I know a girl from my dating world hasn't been exactly honest with me... Whether it is a lie about her age or profession doesn't really matter... This might sound fun or alright, on the other side of the lie, but this is a very serious matter... I simply can't take this lightly! A fib's a fib: and the deception will only grow with the time... A bad fashion I can fix, but a cheat? No way...

She was so young to die.

I can't sleep tonight, why is she in my head tonight? It was a Ramazan, when she called me late night. I did felt her pain inside but I was helpless to be by her side. That night something did went wrong. With the sun I heard she left this world. You can say whatever you want, I will never believe, even if it is true, that she can suicide. I can still see her body lying on that table, too still, for an energetic girl like her. Nobody did noticed me and I could not look at her dead body being buried in the ground. So I rushed to home, with helpless tears I stayed stone for hours. The sun was shining as bright as we had predicted and we were suppose to go for a swim that sunny day. Yeah, she was a good challenge, too fast and always beat me on water a track or two. I miss those nights talking on the stairways, the funny jokes we burst out and the endless coffee table debates. After all these years, I am still to find a girl to match her taste. No wonder why she is still lingering in my head. So tonight let me say "Goodbye" and may she rest in peace with eternal spiritual light. That unfortunate dark night, I lost a friend, my swim buddy, I guess I can't complain but she was so young to die.