I will be deleting my blog...

I hope with my blogging @ dairresistible.blogspot.com someone learned something or found it entertaining enough for a read. You are give a week to take whatever in this blog and treasure it. Because, as of 1st of June 2010 I will be deleting my blog...

Strength of my self-discipline

I am not whining or complaining, more of like while trying out IBM Lotus Symphony I have suddenly got some vested interest in sharing my feelings to make a connection with you. In short, I am utterly dissatisfied. I guess we all are at times, it is in our nature. Humans! Some times it is like you hate the entire world, just want to be alone, leave me alone! Feels like the bars of this cage called life are toughening and rising higher beyond the clouds. The heart speeds up, with frightening thoughts and the forehead gets the sweat. Well, these are the signs that indicate that I am in the wrong place. More like the right time to get a one way ticket out for an escape.

What might have triggered such a state? Perhaps a chance encounter with someone I have been wishing to fall out of love, the nature have facts to prove that wishes are only for the wussies, and in the end never come true anyway. The animal inside wants to come out with unspoken torments and frustrations! Should I let it? Luckily I have matured enough not to act on my impulses.

Love you say, yes, sure I am. Well, who would not want romance in their life. But in love, you take so much time and effort to build a feeble stick house, which can be so easily blown away with the wind of change, or what if you stepped on it, accidentally or just out of ill judgment? So right now, I am not in the mood to tackle any setbacks in the romance department, too much responsibilities. In the matters of the heart, if I play, I play to win and games bring no joy! So it is time to do whatever it takes to brush off this nostalgia. For an ultimate joy, it requires a lot of sparks, but the problem is I have no time for sparks, not now...

So this is time for a change, is love in the air? Yes! But lets say change is in the air sounds better! This is more like a time to transform my heart, mind and my world. A gigantic leap forward. Time to take back the life of sugary sweet, frivolous, not that much sincere but enjoyable. The goal is aimed at a lazy finale, but for the finale I have got some heavy lifting to do, putting all this together requires an unchallengeable discipline. In short, coolness where romance is concerned. To make all these real, a decision has to be made. So I decide, I want freedom, and presto a rising tide of a very positive love vibration, as well as attunement to everything that is elegant, refined, beautiful, stylish and valuable. On a side note interest in antiques and collectibles, shopping and home decoration. I can't win if I don't play. Anything is possible for I know my passion, my potential and the strength of my self-discipline.

I am forced to be focused and mentally-clear...

Most of the time when working in a team, hoping for things to be done smooth and easily turn out to be a big disappointment. It is frustrating but being pushy, willful and to project the anger onto well-meaning teammates and friends is taboo. When things mushroom like this, there is no time for fun, for I am forced to be focused and mentally-clear...

New Inspirations!

Yesterday's luster is all gone and troubling vibes are neutralized. Lesson learned, opportunities are many but there are not that many days when I want an incited face to greet me in the morning. I am in a mood for adventure, this urge to explore the worlds is undeniable. However I am tired of the routine Male', perhaps need to hide away in an island filled with strangers and do a little bird-watching! Maybe some water sports and soulful walk by the beach front for new inspirations.

I love myself...

I think I am bald, haven't seen it or notice it until a friend would comment about it. I return the question, "sexy huh!" For I recall no history of when it all started, but for all I know baldness has nothing to do on my attractiveness or sexual virility. Like some friends, I could force myself to shave but the oh so perfect sterilized look doesn't appeal me much! Is this something to do with age? Well, anytime when someone ask, I have to calculate my age, so age is not an anxiety here...

In lieu of understanding, I will just say "who cares!" On the other hand I could bitch and moan about it! What for? I appreciate who I am and what I have, for I love myself...