See my fake smile until I catch my real smile!

All my colleagues with those envious looks are driving me to my-personality-killing-mood. What they are saying sound harsh to my ears, but all of them are true and intended. Most tasks are way pass the deadline and client's picked today to pin-point them. One of the valuable staff decided to take another tempting offer and officially broke the news. My most depending staff hasn't turn out to work for two days and is out of reach. I love my Mum who is sick. The joy of my life, my sister's daughter, is also sick. The aunt for whom I have a soft spot is in ICU. My little brother and sister are having unexpected drama at home. The most potential girl friend decided to let me know that she started a relationship with another. Personally I am going through a severe headache and a mild chest pain, of which nobody has a clue. Lucky me, today is one of those rare days which I call as 'a bad day'.

Should I start crying? No it's too exhausting, yap, God did not created me to cry! I just about had it, and feels like yelling my heart out on a roof top! No, it is not enough for I am much more spirited, feel like boxing until there is nothing left to feel and think! I can take a bruise with a smile, but a fourth degree sprain is another story! But life goes on, the clock keeps ticking and I am entrusted with the task to focus my eyes on the ball, at least for the next few weeks. If I don't aim for a positive outcome from all this, who else will? I got to start spinning and catch the good momentum.

Does all good things in life has to end? No, it is not the end, just undergoing some major changes! It is heavy on the head and heart, but I love change, so today see my fake smile until I catch my real smile!